So, I recently received an email notifying me that it’s time to renew the domain for this site. Truth be told, I did think about ignoring it and writing off blogging as just a thing I used to do. I know that I come back here every few months or so to promise that I’ll write more, but this time I can’t make any promises.
The thing is, I’m a different person now. I’m a mother to the most amazing baby boy, Harry.
I have different priorities now.
I often think about writing about those priorities and this new lifestyle that I’m settling in to, but then I find myself and my writing not fitting in to what blogging has become. I don’t want to lug around my DSLR to stage the most Pinsterest-worthy Instagram photo to drive traffic to my blog. I don’t want to turn my posts into click-bait lists. I don’t want to create webinars. I just want to write. And connect.
So why haven’t I? I dunno. I guess if I’m being honest, it’s that nagging feeling of inadequacy. I see other blogs that I used to follow that have become big and successful and make lots of money, and then I’m sitting here covered in spit up and worrying that if I open up WordPress and hit publish, I’ll only embarrass myself. I cringe at some old blog posts I’ve written (and deleted) where I was trying so hard to get people to like and follow my blog, when I was trying so hard to be someone I’m not. So far, the easiest way to avoid that has been to just walk away from the blog.
But I’m back. For now. Maybe next week too, maybe not. But I do promise to be authentic and real and me.